My BUCKET of feelings

2009-03-09T00:17:00.001+08:00

have not attained the 10oth post and im going on to wordpress. http://feelingsarekept.wordpress.com/
relink-ed people! (:

2009-03-02T14:30:00.003+08:00

oh yeah exams are over. leaving me 1 month to not touch any school materials. more time to do more things. ((((((:

this week is fully packed and im so excited of doing something hands-on later. or maybe tmr. tada i hope it turns out well! hopefully i'll push myself to work really hard this few weeks. no $$ = no outing. ):

things that im super looking forward to:
driving lessons.
travel around the world. first destination: Jakarta. special meaning about this! tada!
start a new interest. ok start something. whatever.
outings, and more outings!
NN group go ECP! going to plan this really soon. plsss make it during this holidays ppl its been so long since we all mitt up har...
and also not forgetting poly frens right! k-box session, ECP, sentosa!
oh no needa save up bit by bit now. )))):

P.S maybe im going to change to wordpress. HAHA.

gtg. bye!

2009-02-22T02:01:00.003+08:00

counting down to exams. 3 papers. 3 different days. argh. ok actually im not that stress,i mean at this moment. since i have the time to blog. HAHA.

side-tracked abit. my fren texted me today telling me there is police high alert patrol because of possibly terrorist attack at orchard/bugis.
then i tot,oh no im going to work at orchard later! how how. (ok,im afraid to die lah HAHA)
then when i was home after work,saw the news and chey,it was a 19 year old who pranked and ciculated the msg. -_-
eh hello,he's still so young and he have ruined his future. sad for him.

anyway,been thinking thru this few days. wanting to plan a surprise birthday party for some fren whose bday is coming. hahaa ok actually im quite excited since its the first time i've thought of these stuffs. HAHA.

ok,its 2.50am now. omg have been sleeping at the wee hours of the night and waking up in the aftn. i seriously need to adjust my body clock.

im going back to my Tlaw notes. maybe not. TDM NOT. HBM of course NOT. im too tired now. im going to hug my pillows and bolsters now!

ok,i love all my modules. seriously! so it gives me more motivation to study! :D:D:D

大家晚安了!

2009-02-18T21:22:00.003+08:00

i want to travel. i really want to travel. i really really want to travel. at least to experience something out of my normal routine.
watched 'you you tian sia' ytd hosted by Bryan Wong. and wah! he went to so many countries, experiencing their local culture, their way of life, their local food etc etc etc.
I WANT TO TRAVEL! when im financially capable, i will start planning, to anywhere esp somewhere where i can experience their way of life. like looking at how the Bhutanese are contented with their simple life.
and and,i want to go backpack travel! anyone interested?! :D

speaking about studying... to tell you the truth,i havent really started! OH NO.
no concentration,no motivation TO STUDY! give me some light on the exam questions! HAHA.

and maybe this is the last time im going to say this,im going to forget you. at least i'll try and not saying this for the sake of saying it.

2009-02-15T19:59:00.004+08:00

chanced upon my www.blogger.com/home

wanted to have updates on my blog but i realised that i have been up to nth this few days except for work + slacking at home. watched 命中注定我爱你. i know i know,this show is pretty long ago but hack,i still love this show! anyway,i still left with 2 episodes and sian,i will have to lend DVDs from others again! HAHA.

ok nth to blog seriously. im going to continue with my show.
BYE!

how do you rate my feelings now?

2009-02-13T01:12:00.002+08:00

oh yeah. finally im left with 1 journal. and all the way to the start of exams on the 24th. im so going to slack all the way until the last few days to study reaaallll hard. i need to get a better gpa. seriously. although gpa is no longer the top on my list now.
TDM,TLaw,HBM. im so going to die on their hands,esp Tlaw. i doubt not many actually understands what the chpts are all about. anyway,i'll try to bury into the books and the theories to my brains. BUT NOT NOW. HAHA.

went job hunting today with sp. no interviews=no job. i need to get out from hoshi. or that i want to get out. sian sian sian.
on the other side,talked alot to sp too :D

i can say, alot of things is going thru my mind right now. i was wondering whether anything can be further on,or shld i just let it go.
我想我真的动了真感情.是不是很傻呢？

2009-02-07T01:12:00.001+08:00

im just a phone call away.

2009-02-05T13:11:00.002+08:00

oh,did i mention of blogging about my CNY? (:

除夕reunion dinner was filled with love. :D
went out to chinatown to "lo hei" & squeeze with the people there to get some cheap stuffs and we've got mochi! anyway,the mochi was not that nice lah ):
after that went home to paint our nails until 4+am before getting on to bed. tireddddd

初一was filled with fun. woke up at about 9am and came home the next morning at 4+plus am. heh.
first went over to papa house and to third aunt house (where we totally slacked there cuz i dont know anyone there!)
after that went over to meet sarah,sp,sherry,shuxian (all the Ssss) to watch 'the wedding game'. not a typically really nice show,although there's some humor & touching part. HAHA.
and P.S. im not Cavemen ):):):
afterthat,went over to meet my sis and frens for mahjong. woohoo mahjong is very fun! can spend the time away too. haha. anybody wants to play? :D

初二was out again for "lo hei" and then to lydia's house. steamboat-ed,tv-ed,gambled. yeah,won some money too (:

and 初三was golf @ Tanglin golf course. and just one sentence to conclude it, GOLF IS A DIFFICULT SPORT! ):

anyway,i love CNY this yr although i complained i dont look forward to it right? :P
contradicting. and im too lazy to post up the pictures. maybe facebook hehe

well,holidays is coming and soon we're going to be year 3 and graduate. oh no,i hate this feeling. MIXED FEELING argh......

2009-02-03T00:31:00.003+08:00

幸福是可以争取的，尤其是这些属于我们，未必伟大的。
想笑的时候大大声笑，不想笑时脸臭臭，想哭的时候大大声哭，其实就是最珍贵的幸福。

什么才是真正的幸福？

will update on my CNY very soon! totally loved! :D

2009-01-23T00:43:00.003+08:00

oh yeah. i should be determined to update on my blog. HAHA.

this few days is super uber busy with projs. NOT. have been totally slacking all the way except for like maybe 2 hours?! OH NO!
CNY is coming and i havent even done any clearing up. can you imagine how messy my table is?! OH NO!
actually,im not looking forward to cny. not at all. ):
anyway,i still went to look for new year clothing today. contradicting isnt it. HAHA.
bought a pair of jeans. i want a shirt too but im really super duper broke. how how how ):

tmr is going to be a long day. I HATE WORK.

and with the many ):):):
IM A HAPPY GIRL.

2009-01-17T01:13:00.004+08:00

hello blogger! finally im updating after so loonnnngggggggggg

the 3 weeks holiday is filled up with fun fun fun!!! celebrations,countdowns,get-togethers. i miss it so!
esp. the meet up with devi. omg its been a year plus since i last saw her. lots of catching up but i know there's still more more & more. I SUPER MISS HER CAN!!!

and with the start of the school term,it gets duller and duller. sian and more sian. but yeah,more projs are down! :D but there are more ):

oh,and i went to the spa today! i did strawberry body scrub. nicee nicee. but its awkward,nervous,dont-know-how-to-react. i can hand in my reflection with this few words alr. hahaa. and,i do not have any spa etiquette! OH NO!

ok,this few days im like super high! i dont know why.
but i can feel very dull when you feel down too. why like that?!

oh yeah,look at the time now. im going to wake up in a few hours time to Kovan. come support our bazaar @ Kovan Hub! haha so late alr who will come and see my blog?! ok im too random. anyway,its STALL 24 ok!!! hehe

im falling asleep ... sweet dreams ppl!

2008-12-14T15:46:00.003+08:00

HELLO BLOGGER! i feel so lost in blogging. sometimes i have the urge to blog,but after sitting infront of the com for so long,i dont have the urge anymore. why like that?!
alright,today i shall post a long post.

firstly,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DEVIANA! although i alr wished her ytd teeheehee :D
she's a really very very super super nice nice friend & buddy that i've know. everything little details and thing i'll grumble to her. hmm,i think she know's too much of my secret eh HAHA. nevertheless,even though you're away in indonesia,the small little things i've in my life still gets into your ears right?! :D ok,i never fail to update her on my life! not forgetting sherry & sp too! HAHAHA.
i hope she gets to see this post!

going on to my birthday (which is like super long ago...)
BIG THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE WISHED ME!
and those who have celebrated with me!
and also the prez i received!
specially thanks to ...
CARRIE,HUIQI,SHUZHEN for the k-box session & dinner!
SHIPEI,SHERRY,SARAH,SHUXIAN,HAKIM,ASLAM who came out for dinner and the shirt!CARRIE,HUIQI,SHUZHEN,JIAWEN,CHUWEN,ARIANA,YAOWEI,YONGLIANG for the jacket & wallet!
and last but not least, DEVIANA who personally called me on my bday :D

and im going to post about my cousin who is younger than me by 12 years. she's so cute!

get my meaning? the cliparts and frame are all edited by herself! HAHA i merely collage the pictures. lol. SHE'S REALLY CUTE! hahaa.

super long post (at least to me) after so long. HAHA.
no doubt im going to enjoy my holidays. although its filled with work,catching-ups :) and not forgetting projs ):

dear santa
i hope to love and be love again!

2008-12-09T15:37:00.003+08:00

yes one last paper. im looking forward to it!
and im thinking where to go after the last paper. HAHA.

how to study for SPM?! =X

:)

2008-12-01T23:33:00.003+08:00

not constantly updating.
sometimes i think that personal diaries are better than blogs. what do you think?

anyway,are you people busy with studying and elearning? HAHA.

and and and,i need photos to update my blog! send me the photos! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CARRIE!

2008-11-23T00:28:00.004+08:00

human beings are selfish. i know im one of them too. im just too scared,really.

its barely 4 months. i know i can take it,but i just broke down.im like stuck in between. i mean like,who wont be selfish? i know im thinking of my own benefits. but..

ok.i bet no one knows what im talking about. anyway,i want someone who can talk to me. trust me,i'll break down. but yah,i'll prefer no one talks about it. contradicting as it seems.

i dont know what im talking about now. can anyone be in my shoes and know what im feeling right now. ):

2008-11-16T22:20:00.002+08:00

blogging for the sake of updating my going-to-rottttt blog.

maybe im too mean,maybe im not. but haiya,i dont give a damn about it.
i think you will realise it,but i wont regret it. cuz i really hated you too much.

anw,im taking my life too easily nw. too many things left undone. seriously,i have to start working out something since ive quite abit of free time anytime,anywhere. HAHA

alright,ive nth to update alr. see,my life is so BORINGGGGG.
good night people!

2008-11-11T21:16:00.005+08:00

if i dont update,my friends will say that my blog is going to rotttttt.
ok,maybe im just plain lazy. im occupied by school work you know! HAHA
although i have alot of things to voice out,i dont have the time to sit down and think of what im going to write. ok,IM LAZY I KNOW!

alright,some pictures to put some entertainment in my blog

i have a big family :D

bad bad photography skills HAHA

my future sis-in-law? SHE'S SO NICE! :D

and my gong gong! so active right?!

maybe im just having PMS this few days, maybe not.

my mind and soul dont seem to function well these days.

and im confused. why do all adults react the same way?

HELLO WE HAVE GROWN UP.

alright. time to do my tutorials! (that's crap)

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE! :D

2008-11-01T02:02:00.002+08:00

surprisingly,i talked to josephine for about an hour before going home. HAHA. what a way to talk. :D
lots of things to complete every week.damn slack and shack. what a way to end off every week. :S

i need to get some sleep now.

and i suddenly realised,im havent got over you yet.

2008-10-26T01:49:00.002+08:00

i think im living beneath a mask everyday. life has been so hectic. sometimes i dont know how to espress my feelings out. maybe i dont like the way im being controlled. maybe i dont like the way on how you treat others,or rather me.
whatever it is,
maybe one day. maybe one day. maybe one day.
i may not be the girl that you once knew.

anw,so sad no gym/badminton tmr ):
sigh. i want to lose weight! ive been eating less and less lately. im going to have a drastic change soon.

good night. take care folks.

2008-10-22T22:59:00.001+08:00

my screwed up life.
i tell you i hate it.

2008-10-20T19:22:00.008+08:00

ok. carrie said i have not been updating my blog. so here i am to blog about my sentosa trip with jingyun,mary,harlene,princess few weeks ago. hahaa. (:

one day before mary and harlene leaves singapore,we went to sentosa and yeah,it was a really fun fun trip!

yeah,i finally managed to upload most of it! i think pictures really speak a thousand words. (:
and its the first time that i took on the cable car in singapore! and me and jingyun look so much like tourists that day! took photos everywhere,with the merlion,at the imbiah lookout bla bla bla. hahaa.
then we went to sing k at partyworld until 3am. was damn shagged,but still,we managed to send them off at the airport at about 5am.

though i did not sleep for the whole day and was super tired. but still,i enjoyed that day very much :D

jeann,mary,jingyun,harlene,me :D

2008-10-16T18:53:00.003+08:00

finally SPM proj is over. we are all like sleeping early in the morning and waking up super early on wed just to do the things that we suddenly thought of on tuesday evening. ok,blame it on my determined mind to put the clouds where i dont think much people ever notice it. but im so proud of my 2 sis and my mum who stayed up with me till 4 something. :D

but well,i think we really did a fabulous job and GOLF is real fun. alright maybe to me only. and NINTENDO WII! im sure everybody enjoys it. haha.

ahhhhhhhh BOXING IS SO FUN. hahaa.

im getting more and more irritated by alot of things created. but i just cant help it but to complain and make a big fuss about it. but well,that is part and parcel of life and maybe i should try to forgive and forget. right? its not going to be better and im just going to bear with it. my heart is too weak now and i just want to live on a good life.

on a side note,i want to go watch wu xia liang zhu! although the movie ratings by magazines is damn bad,but i still wanna watch it. because of wu zun. he's handsome.

2008-10-12T12:07:00.002+08:00

school is starting tmr :/
i hate to wake up at a freaking 7am
and i hate to squeze with others in the bus.

oh,see. how i hate life now.
but i do love schooling more than working my life and time out just to earn that bit of money. oh well i shldnt grumble too much.

and im still waiting for photos of the sentosa trip to blog! hehe.

i hope there's no anxiousness to go school tmr my friends! :D

2008-10-06T23:28:00.002+08:00

finally i changed my blogskin :)
maybe i'll change another one sooooonnnnnn.

went to watch PAINTED SKIN today. nice and touching movie. i think its worth the money to go and watch it people!

well this is a very short post cuz i dont know what to blog.

good night.

2008-10-02T23:48:00.002+08:00

holidays is ending soon. 2 more weeks.
i havent earn enough money.
i havent enjoy my holiday.
im stuck in a proj IN THE HOLIDAYS. (but logistics is fun lah :D

been busying this few days. actually im keeping myself busy lah. :P
ok, so what did i do for the whole week?
hmm,went out with my uncle brother. hahaa. so long never see him and he suddenly look so old alr. hahaha.

then on 29sept,monday, i spent the whole day and night out cuz of mary and harlene going back to philiphine the next day. harlene was late so me,jingyun,mary walked ard level 3 vivo like a tourist. hahaa. after that went to take the cable car to sentosa. after that was playing the luge and the skyride. and then to walking ard the imbiah like a tourist. but its raining. ):
then after that went to sing k at partyworld until 3am. lol. then took taxi to airport. omg and the midnight charge. ):
after sending them off,jingyun and me went to mac for breakfast and back home. hahaa. and i only got to sleep at about 8am but woke up at a freaking 11.30am. damn tired.
spent ard 100 bucks in one day although we only ate fastfoods the whole day. hahaa.
photos will be uploaded soon... if im not lazy hahaa.

then on 30sept,tuesday, went out with carrie,huiqi,shuzhen,yaowei and yongliang. hahaa. so fun lah. actually the main purpose is to do proj,but at the same time,play too. hahaa. went to arcade to play after so long. LOL. in the end,at least manage to buy felt for the proj. hahaa.
then after that went out with sarah. going out with her is so fun lah. hehe.

then today was going out to do proj. logistics is fun as we started doing. hahaa.

and tmr was out with mummy brother sisters they all. a total of 8 persons. wah,so big big family. hehe. im so looking forward. LOL :D

see,im keeping myself busy despite the days i have to work too. hahaa.
ok i need to sleep liao. so tired tired!
good night!

2008-09-23T13:02:00.002+08:00

life have been rather eventful i can say. so many many things happening and i dont know when i can even take a breather. sometimes when it comes to even find someone to talk to, you cant even find one.
i have so many things in my mind that sometimes i think that knowing too much is not a good thing.
and breaking down infront of someone makes me feel that im not that strong afterall. maybe i have double personality. many will see me as someone who jokes ard like nobody business at all. but i know for myself,i have so much things to cry and groan about. i need a pillar. maybe one day you will see me becoming insane. maybe.

ok,i look emo in almost every post. =X
anyway,was working ytd and saw 2 groups of korean sailors coming to our restaurant. one grp of 8 in their uniform,6 guys and 2 girls.i think they are sailors,and we look like we are chasing fans. lol. anw we manage to take photos with them. HAHA. another group of koreans (i think their rank is lower than the previous group),also in their uniform came into the restaurant. and one is quite handsome. lol. anw we also took photo with them. HAHA.
anyway,we took photos with them because they are koreans and were in their uniforms. LOL.

ok. something to end off my post.
What is Marketing?
You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I am very rich.
Marry me!'
That's Direct Marketing

you're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a
gorgeous girl.
One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you
says, 'He's very rich. Marry him.'
That's Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and get her telephone number.
The next day you call and say, 'Hi, I'm very rich.
Marry me.'
That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and
pour her a drink.

You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops
it, offer her a ride, and then say, 'By the way,
I'm very rich 'Will you marry me?'
That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
She walks up to you and says, 'You are very rich, I
want to marry you.'
That's Brand Recognition.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I'm rich. Marry me'
She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.
That's Customer Feedback

alright. i think its funny.

bye!

2008-09-19T20:35:00.003+08:00

got a shock this morning. mum said that my bill cost 70 something bucks, which is more than the usual 30plus every usual month. and you know what was it? 45 bucks for the Gee! services. wtf. i remembered i just served at most 3-4 websites lah. %*&$&*#^

so i decided to call starhub to doublecheck and i needa wait for 2 weeks for them to retrieve the sites that i visited. -_-
so angry.

anyway,went to so many places today. firstly to school,then to amk to eat,then to orchard to find manager ricky then to dinner with my sis. actually i wanted to go back home and sleep. but aiyah,i love to run around. LOL. and and and,i wore until super "lock cok" today. looks like an auntie. hahaa. and i still roam around everywhere. LOL.
oh,and i saw a wedding limousine (dont know how to spell), bet that there's a couple inside. omg. they are so rich to book a limousine. hahaa.

and i saw this guy. see his leg.
interesting tattoo. hahaa.

im not pervert eh. =X

oh,F1 is tough job.

2008-09-18T20:17:00.004+08:00

went out with SP today. was awesome hahaa. since i dont see my girlfriends everyday like last time. hahaa. anyway,went to orchard and walked from far east to shaw house to taka to cine and to heeren. quite a long walk and we managed to talked alot LOL. sarah shld have joined us. hahaa.

as we are continuing our shopping at some shopping mall, we went to a shop (shall not mention the name) and i did something that i felt guilty afterthat. i tried on some bangle and after trying it, i put it back. after about 5 seconds (eh,about there lah) the bangle dropped on the floor and broke. omg. and a girl was so nice to help me picked it up (maybe assuming that i dropped it). hey,i wasnt the one who dropped it. i just put it back and it dropped onto the floor after few seconds. argh. it cost 18 bucks ok. anyway,wanted to "report" to the sales personnel,but nobody was there. so i just put it back and see that nth has happened. hahaa. am i too bad? lol. but i dont think its my fault leh hahaa. and i just roam round and saw a few cameras there. shit lol. and i walked out afterthat. hahaa.
will they trace me back to pay the pathetic 18 bucks? LOL.

and i bought 2 tops today. hehe. and im not thrifty enough since im going to quit my job soon. LOL.
ok,i shall start saving soon. (:

didnt took any photos today. haix forget. ):
anyway,hello to SP :D

gonna go school tmr. so tired.

bye!

2008-09-17T01:02:00.002+08:00

complain,complaining,complained.
yeah,that's me. i have been complaining something to my family just ytd. and they got stunned by the number of cb that came out of my mouth. ok,im vulgar. HAHA. anyway,its just somewhere to vent my anger. realised that i shld nt get so uptight with things sometimes.

and and and,ive handed in my resignation form. yayness,cuz ive been thinking of the pros and cons on whether to quit this job for a very long time alr.
why i dont feel the sadness of leaving this job? hmm...

and i found another interesting thing to do at home. writing letter to my fren! HAHA ok im being lame. anyway,i can update her with alot alot of things which i think writing letters would be perfect. (:

and im sick. omg. ):

2008-09-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

今天早上很不开心。
知道为什么吗？我也不知道。心情超烂。
im not going to work alr. decided. i cant survive there. wont change my mind so easily now.
with my mind set,im jobless. ):
someone wan2 intro me to any jobs?

anyway,my mood changed quite fast when i chatted with someone. fast eh? anyway,he damn funny guy last time when he used to work with us. HAHA. anyway,my mind is still set on quitting the job. im also going on "holiday" LOL

after work (finally survived the 4 hours) i was off to bugis. shop ard bugis street and my wishlist is getting longer and longer. HAHA. i want a bag,a jacket,a wallet, more shirts and more shorts!!! :D:D:D
but sadly,i didnt bought anything there. i'll buy next time. hahaa. and thanks my ah mei for treating me to dinner/supper LOL (:

and i got many many things kept inside me,which i dont know where to vent it to. is it too sad a life?

do i think i still love you?

2008-09-12T00:12:00.003+08:00

i dont like the feeling of being fooled. argh.

anyway apart from that, had a fun day going to the zoo! hahaa. ok,sounds like a kid,but im having fun!

that's my FACT OF THE DAY! :D

my shirt can glow in the dark HAHA

shuzhen,yaowei,me,carrie,huiqi :D

for more photos,please go to yw blog. im too lazy to update. hahaa. but hey,i learnt alot! heyhey :D

work has been ...
i really drag going to work now. i've met a damn scary/weird/whatever-you-called-it person. he's damn damn DAMN weird. maybe one day i'll be too scared to go to work. hahaa.

tmr will be a better day! (:

2008-09-09T00:31:00.004+08:00

i just realized. how ugly some singaporeans can be. omg.
if they are so rich to come to a restaurant to eat,why must you care how pricy is the rice,is there service charge bla bla bla?

ytd when i was getting too bored,i cleared up some of my things. not cleared,but it brings back alot of memories. (:
rest assured,i kept all the letters well :D

can you all spot the amt of letters you all gave me? i just love you guys! it really bring back so many fond memories.
i think traditional writing of letters is better than sending emails?

i just simply adore these things! :D

everytime i relate back to all the bad things that has happened last time, i just think that im a very stupid girl. but thinking back on all the happy things, i just think that im the happiest girl! (:
ok,im just too happy thinking back on the days spent with DEVIANA. hahaha. come back soon! :D also not forgetting my lao peng you. SHIPEI,SHERRY,SARAH,YOKEHIANG! hahaa. NN grp ah. (:
omg,i sound so old now.

anyway,sometimes i can be too sad. while sometimes,i can turn happy super fast. why like that?

2008-09-07T19:41:00.002+08:00

今天
today is a bad day. bad day today.
im pissed off. very pissed off. with myself.
why must i be so f*** up with this? why must i think so much into it? oh please.
i know for myself. i can cry so much.

do you have expectations? do i have expectations?
why some of us can find what they want,while others cant. why why,tell me why. ):
can i get what i want too?

im sorry. this is a really random post which i dont know why im writing this.

2008-09-04T14:24:00.003+08:00

ytd was out with wanjun and jingyun. (:
hahaa. had fun all the way. jingyun crap alot,as usual. lol. went to bugis street,then to eat,then to bugis street again,then to bugis junction,then to starbucks,then to bugis junction again. AND BACK HOME. hahaa. see,bugis is too small.

the most funniest part during the day was at the starbucks. wanjun wanted her oreo cheesecake. and apparently we tot that it was out of stock. but,actually,it was between 2 new york cheesecake (which looks yellowish). and amazingly,i saw the oreo cheesecake and i said "neh,between the new york cheesecake". they were like "huh,where got". and wanjun was saying that oreo cheesecake black one leh. then i was like saying "not black enough meh?" hahaa. then wan jun saw the cake,while jingyun still hasnt spot it. LOL.
did anyone catch the joke? its super funny when wanjun relate back to the scene when we're eating the cakes. hahaa.

sad. didnt get the f1 job. nevermind. shall stick to my ohsoboringjob for now. i shld really gogetanewjob soon. ):

not been doing something worthful in life. wake up,work,hanging out with friends,sleep. omgomgomg. i need to get a life.
-pick up new skill (learn guitar during the holis?)
-learn yoga
-exercise! i want to get rid of my FATS. pls dont say i skinny, i really gt loads of fats! ):

sometimes,i dont know why. i can see your pretense. things you dont know,just say dont know. dont boohoo all the way. im doubting you more ...

2008-08-31T21:16:00.003+08:00

IM GOING TO DYE MY HAIR TMR! weehee :D

so ytd was out with sarah,shuxian,shipei to watch the NP strings 15th virtuoso concert. of course,is to watch our dear sherry perform. hahaa.
saw so many familiar faces. so paiseh. lol.

sarah,me,shipei :D

that's sherry! :D

so..i have limited photos. sarah,must send me the photos! (:

oh well,was thinking of changing jobs just now. work at the same restaurant for 1 year plus alr,and im getting to feel the sian-ness. oh well ...

not much updates. gonna work,work,and work during the holidays HAHA.
sounds contradicting? sian from my job,but then still want to work. LOL.

2008-08-29T13:51:00.006+08:00

Ah??!! really? omg how you know? when you know? they how long already? - deviana

hahaa. she's always so concern. iiloveyou! :D

and hey,im trying to forget though,dont worry (:

oh anyway,went to the COMEX IT Fair ytd. actually i dont have anything in mind,but i really adore the sony T300 camera. its selling at 499 now but hey,i dont have that much money to buy. someone want to sponsor me? :P

and after that,we went to K-box! hahaa. and apparently,the most "high" awards will be awarded to MISS CARRIE and MISS HUIQI! lol. while MISS SHUZHEN and ME is awarded the most "nen jing" award cuz we always chose the soothing songs LOL. and as for YAOWEI, be more enthu lah! i sing more "lan ting" lo hahaa.

the singers LOL (:

i think i'll dread myself to work. kinda boring w/o the most funniest person around hahaa.

argh anyway,i was thinking of changing jobs. should i or should i not? im always contradicting with myself :/

haiya,hope i can get into as one of the F1 tourism ambassoder :D

tmr's out to watch the Virtuoso concert by NP strings. although i've quitted long time ago LOL.

but JIA YOU ppl,esp sherry eh hahaa (:

and i'll get to meet up with the 3S, shipei,sarah,and shuxian! much love!

and you,hey you,yes you,you really can make someone's day! hahaa. (:

2008-08-26T15:52:00.006+08:00

my schedule was packed since friday. hahaa.

Saturday was out watching fireworks again. yes,AGAIN. this time round was the korea team. our view was superb but our plan of taking photos with the fireworks was not successful ):

and sunday was out with my sisters. went to trim eyebrows,and eat at my fathers' zhu chao. hahaa. let me recommend the best zhu chao in town,

have you all been watching this show? you all should go and try! im not exactly sure of the location,but come ask me! hahaa.

this is a table full of food for the 3 of us! and hey,we managed to finish it :D

aren't we a glutton? :P

and yesterday was out with carrie,huiqi,shuzhen,yaowei,and allen to ECP! :D

very fun and tiring day. spent 2 hours cycling, and 2 hours rollerblading, and walked for abut 50 minutes just to find somewhere to wash up, and then to eat at the food village at marine parade. i still rmb my grandfather used to bring us to marine parade to eat,and the food village changed so much! hahaa.

does it look like LOVE? hahaa.

for more photos, pls go to yw blog (:

and i sort of know how to rollerblade alr. hahaa. i fell 4 times on my butt,and its seriously very very painful. and my whole body is super aching now. ):

after you know how to fall,you will know how to rollerblade. hahaa.

alright,off to work! not been working for like 2 weeks?! but im so not looking forward. :/

tears no longer controllable. can you feel my agony,my hurt,my anger,my love?

to me,you're lonely. you need someone and you've found.

hopes were dashed. i was right not to tell you that iiloveyou.

nonetheless,i will be strong.

tmr will be a better day i guess. (:

2008-08-23T01:10:00.004+08:00

weehee EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! (:
and i finally see some light for ATRM during the exam,although there's some mistakes here and there. nevertheless,I SEE SOME LIGHT FOR MY GPA. lol. pls pls pls,let me get a good gpa. :/
well,for CEM & PMKT, hope it goes well (:

and,and,and. after a very stress and intense week of exams, went to orchard,and then to watch fireworks with shuzhen,and allen. and huiqi was good lah, sitting at the floating platform,watching the performance and the fireworks. but,we got to watch the fireworks by the france team at a superb place too :D
tmr will be going to watch again by the korea team. :D
and,its really really nice! YOU SHOULD NOT MISSED IT! 9pm at the floating platform. (but timing really very not accurate HAHAHA)

thurs was out with sarah. did i mention that? lol
talked so much. really.

hello sarah! 7 plus year of friendship and still counting :D

after seeing some hope in that,i still lost. nobody understands,but imemyself truely understands. ):

holidays seeems packed to me. although i can NOT go and work,and just chill out with friends,and relax at home. HAHA. but,w/o work,i feel something different in my life also. haiya,contradicting with myself. ):
haix,just heard from someone that he is not working anymore. omg,hoshi will be more quiet and not lively w/o him. hahaha.

packed for the week. and im going to enjoy every single moment. and lessen the pain and hurt.

and i think im being very very emotional. maybe. sometimes.
you found your true love. congrats.
but im hurt.

2008-08-14T12:47:00.002+08:00

this is my 50th post. it seems so far since i dont update frequently. hahaa.

anyway,i went to school for ATRM revision lecture. and oh man,my graded classwork flunk like siao. seriously,i never get so low for my tests before. nevertheless,its just 2.5%. LOL.

then sis came home ytd at 11 something. and told me that there's so many policemen and civil defence at commonwealth station. probably someone jumps off from the platform?or accidentally? oh gosh its damn scary since it occurs at commonwealth station. and the train towards pasir ris is delayed for 1 hour. and she heard someone saying that why must he live in tampines?LOL.

and im probably going out later for sarah's bday (:
meeting up with this girl is difficult. LOL.
i just need to throw my PMKT aside for awhile. hahaa.
oh well,im still stuck in PMKT. just dont feel like memorising. ):

alright,going off to study. and i really am :D

everyday i have been thinking so much

2008-08-11T22:20:00.004+08:00

well,today is monday and im left with only 5 days to my exams. oh gosh. i have been sleeping for practically more than 10 hours everyday. and for the other hours of the day,i've been chasing the olympics games. LOL.
i will start studying. SOON. :/

and friday was ATRM presentation. we were all so formal in our suits and i think one can spot me easily with my red-pink shirt inside. LOL.

My ATRM grp

TR01 :D

off to study. yea right. :/

i am practically missing you everyday. you?

if we are meant to be together,we will be together

2008-08-07T00:01:00.003+08:00

finally have some time to take a breather.
and ytd was the first time that i slept at 5am to complete a proj. omg. but i do have a sense of accomplishment. (:

i dont know why. im very tired and shagged. but i cant get to sleep until the wee hours of the night. my normal time for sleeping this few days is like 2-3am? gosh.
and im going to fall sick soon, i guess ):

major things happened this few days.
and seriously,i cant control my emotions. i cried even at the slighest things.
sis say we should not have regrets since we have visited grandpa during chinese new year too. oh gosh,shen lao bing shi. its a path where everyone will go thru. and im trying to accept all this. ):

alright,im getting too emo into things sometimes that no one knows my true self. although my friends always see me laughing here and there. LOL.

i should really get to sleep now. tmr out for ATRM discussion and blazer.
finally,im left with 1 presentation and reflections. although the other classes are all done with it :/
JIA YOU EVERYONE! :D

it looks like a triangle relationship to me. when should let go?

2008-08-01T21:50:00.006+08:00

WOW day. fun-filled. (:

pictures :D

HI MR TAN aka yaowei (:
new hairstyle haha.

chuwen and me (:

huiqi and me JAMMINg ICs (:

shuzhen,huiqi,me. BIG MIRROR

amy and me (:

allen,huiqi,me :D

my cute little sister. do we look alike? HAHAHA.

they are so talented. :D

JAMMING :D

i think there's more photos to come (:
and yaowei is very very lame today. and im called a freaking cat by him. -_-''
that's how lame he is when we speak chinese. HAHAHA.

well,im seriously very very busy this few days which i dont know why. never-ending projects. omg. i hope that wednesday will come sooner. or is it later? :/

THANKS MY JAMMING PERFORMERS! YOU ALL HAVE DONE A FANTASTIC JOBS :D
good night (:

and im really getting more and more irritated by you. cant you just stop nagging? why cant you trust us more. tsk.

2008-07-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

rehearsal for "wow day". we needa have more practise. hahaa. dance is really superb! lol.

ATRM proj. so difficult! i dont know how to analyze! hahaa. shit.

little updates today.

oh yea, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRANDON JOSHUA! :D

why are there all smiles when i thought of you?
my focus is always on you. (:

2008-07-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

i feel like a glutton! i had been eating non-stop in the evening. beardpapa cream puff,fondant chocolate, sushi, chicken chop, takopachi ... although i ate only half of each,but omg. that's too much. hahaha. i shld control. lol. :/

hmm,sunday smells boring. woke up,work,back home,eat,and here i am blogging. INSTEAD OF DOING LAM. oh gosh. i have been doing LAM for the past 1 hour or so. or more than that? haiya,anyway,i dont know what to do lah. sian.
alright,table topics again for bcomm. i hope i wont screw up. i should build up my confidence.

and oh,there's a oh-so-cute small little boy who came to our restaurant today. he's a mixed blood, and he looks like some celebrity. really. damn cute!!! hahaha. omg.
and i told my dear ricky pa pa that he's so cute,and he said that haiya,just go find any guy to bear the kids. and i said something about finding true love first. and he said that there's no true love in the world.
im wondering. but i seem to believe there's true love in this world. hahaa.

alright,time for bed.

what am i waiting for?
i should have gone to bed now.

2008-07-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

saturday. a day at home w/o work. resting cum watching tv cum working on proj. and i did. (:

UR proj. going smoothly. i dont like people like you. we all have our respective works to do too.
ATRM proj. killer.
LAM proj. seriously a killer. :/
omg.

and im going to hate someone from my workplace. you dont say me when you yourself dont have any asset too. they tell me to dont care about what you say. but HEY, i care about what others say about me. damn.
and oh,im really getting irritated and sick of the voice that they always make. OMGosh.

bla bla bla. and i dont have any updates in life. oh wells, i want to lose weight! which is kinda impossible. LOL :/
i have been saying this for the dont-know-how-many-times. hahaha.

work tmr again. please stop irritating me. or i will maybe kill you. hahaha. but im not so violent lah. you make sure you get it from me. si fei zhu. hurmph.

alright,i guess i have to get to sleep soon. i love my cosy bed. lol.
good night! or is it GOOD MORNING? :P

i just hope that you are not avoiding me.
give me some love, will you?

2008-07-25T00:59:00.004+08:00

second time to boat quay. raining. not productive. inaccurate results.
i dont wanna go there again. but i think we have to. ):
walking in the rain was fun. hahaha. lucky my immune system is strong. lol.

and we seriously have to start writing our report. LAM,ATRM. and we havent even start. quite slack isnt it? omg.
and there is my UR proj. i need to think of something other than ppt. its 30% leh! ):
and oh,wow day is coming in a weeks time? looking forward. quickly finish it.
see,4 projects in less than 2 weeks. and im sitting down and updating my blog. omg. im really slacking when it comes to work. ):

guys protect ladies. or is it the other way round?

2008-07-21T15:36:00.007+08:00

Table topics. ONLINE GAMING. omg. that sucks.
people who know me knows that i dont have tong lian, dont play games. zzz. this topic should let yao wei say. hahaha.
and, i lack confidence and i cant convinced people on what i say. hmm,shoud really work harder on that.
I NEED CONFIDENCE. ):

saturday was celebrating jean's birthday in advance. see,happy family. (:

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JEAN :D

sports car makes me happy, very happy, really happy :D
ok,carrie dont kill me. hahaha. random.

oh,and finally, i can get some sleep later. im damn damn damn shagged now. ):

when?
treasure your loved ones.

2008-07-18T23:37:00.006+08:00

came back from clarke quay and boat quay.
one word: SHAGGED. i have been repeating for umpteen times and i dont seem to get sick of it. lol.
LAM proj is simply OMG.
no words can describe it. -_-
it was like a small outing for TRM peeps. can see so many familiar faces there. haha.
another trip there on thurs. i must be more productive. hahaha.
I DONT WANT TO GO THERE AGAIN. ):

as usual,we cam-whored ard. lol.

carrie,me,huiqi (:

and sad to say,my mp3 earpiece is spoilt. sob ):
oh,and i think im very irritating today. keeping saying "omg,sports car!" LOL

alright,im too tired. my eyelids are so heavy now.
good night! (:

P.S. send me the photos that we took today! :D

2008-07-17T14:15:00.009+08:00

watched a movie in UR class "before sunrise"

yeah,a movie about a guy and a girl. -_-

shan't elaborate. sian. haha.

4 projects to be completed in about 2 weeks?

its a killer,seriously.

depress,depressing,depressed. i think im going to be in the last stage alr. its depressing you know. hahaha.

and its difficult to mark down a person,even though you know she's not doing much on her part. and stop giving all those excuses. just a small meeting and you are not here almost all the time. wth. even though you have done some work, and i know you have made the effort to complete it on time, but yar, please try to NOT COPY AND PASTE and use some brain juices of yours. please. it is the 3rd semester alr and i just dont see any improvements. yar,everybody knows WHO i am talking about.

and yaowei is super bo liao.

why do people eat desserts when they are stressed?

because when reading STRESSED backwards, is DESSERTS. -_-'''

haha.and some random photos that yaowei took just now. w/o us noticing it? i tot he deleted. lol.

omg my face is so square here. like argh ):

carrie's laptop FEAR FACTOR

having friends around me makes me happy :D

2008-07-16T23:31:00.001+08:00

when will we _______ with each other?
im damn sad now. ):

2008-07-16T00:24:00.002+08:00

i dont like projects. ):

the journey doesnt stop there.
lets continue.
ti amo. (:

2008-07-14T13:34:00.000+08:00

ytd was discussing project at ariana's house. fun,i can say. lol. eventually went to play dai dee. hahaha. and i didnt even win one round. ):

carrie posing

while playing dai dee. hahaha. (:

after that went to eat at kovan. damn alot of people. the bar chor mee was not bad lah haha. and the sugarcane juice was sold out for every store ooommggg ):

then went back home via bus. lucky i didnt vomit in the bus. LOL. its an ugly sight if i vomitted. thanks troy for talking to me. hahaha.

e-portfolio. was badly done. i think i have to re-do to make it more professional. and to rewrite the script. hahaha.

study TRM and wanted to apply for a job as an auditor. hahaha. anyway,i will change my job preferance anytime before i graduate. LOL.

ok,back to PMKT tutorial.

bye!

im a happy girl. (:

2008-07-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

HELLO HI NI HAO
will be a really busy month this july. sian.
im so tied up with work. while at the same time,slacking. hahaha.

sometimes i wonder.
life's a misery. you will never know what's going to happen the next minute. why must we live in a world with miseries. I WANT TO LIVE IN A FAIRYTALE WORLD.
i cant help to say,life's sucks sometimes. :/
oh btw,im not emo-ing whatsoever. i just want to release my anger so that there will never be a world war 3.

我爱的人,不是我的爱人.
oh,im addicted to the song. my frens will know it. :D

bye!
oh,and yaowei,stop making me paiseh! hahaha. and i will continue to spam you too. if i have the time. hahaha!

2008-07-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

so many things,so little time.

ok,im just plain lazy to update.

oh well,was stressed up with life this few days. school,work,life. argh,it gets too boring if i say it out. ):
nevertheless,i will try to forget all about it,and hope things will get better.

ok,back to projects again. zzz. LAM presentation,for my part,was bad. and there are so many many upcoming projects and tests.
people,lets perserve! :D

bye!

i cant rmb when's the last time i say i'll stop loving you.

2008-07-01T14:00:00.000+08:00

im at our space now. with carrie,huiqi,shuzhen and ariana.
LAM project is seriously sucky lah. PHYSICAL EVIDENCE. how the hell are we going to write out 4000 words? what crap.

work aside. ytd i went to orchard with my sis. haiyo its boring to go there almost everyday. hmm,so i went to get my pay,and she went to get her phone. but she can only get her phone back in only 1 or 2 weeks time bcuz her phone's motherboard was damaged. omg lah.the motherboard is like the brain of the phone.
hmm,then after that we went to eat ramenten at far east. we ordered a ramen,a bento,soft shell crab maki,waffle. and it cost about 40 bucks for the two of us,and we are not even full. i still went home to eat. im still at puberty. LOL

i know i saw you. which is ridiculous for me. how i hate the feeling. ):

btw,can i know how to change the time for the blog.

ok,back to LAM. bye!

2008-06-30T11:16:00.000+08:00

finally changed my blogskin. (:

im tired of my old blogskin alr. the font is so small. haha.

yesterday went to send herry off.

only sherry,yu ning,shu xian,kai vearn,aslam,isa and me went. lol.

so few compared to those groups i saw in the airport. haha.

went to eat popeye's. its about the same as KFC but, its better than KFC lah. the mashed potato was damn nice. i want to eat more. :D

then after that,we went to NTUC. i also dont know why they go, after i saw herry holding a basket with 3 huge boxes of koko crunch. -_-''' and he said that he brought alot of maggi mee back too.

-you look like you are going for survial camp arh. hahaha.

and there's also no garlsberg beer there in sydney. weird.

can easily guess whose that. hahaha.

4 gays. hahaha

the 8 of us. grabbed from sherry. :D

and deviana,when are you coming back? :D

work during the weekends was...

everyday i will bring home millions of complaints and interesting things to tell my mummy and sister. LOL.

but its really frustrating sometimes. she's really very guai lan,ren xiao gui da. humph

-wo ren ni! hahaha.

its better to forget.

2008-06-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

school. projects.
not enjoying it. but yah,im slacking every moment in school. WAKE UP!

hmm,fancy waking up early in the morning,taking my nap in the evening,and turning in late in the night. that's my boring life. ):

sometimes i really wonder, why i started creating a blog. its beginning to be a chore sometimes,and its only a sudden urge to create it. haha. nevermind,i'll update often. people,will you read my blog? ok,random.

you know,you set me thinking. and you really made my day. hahaha. are you serious in what you said?

you cannot predict fate isn't it?

but,im still thinking of you. (:

hmm,weird me.

2008-06-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

im back to blog again after a week. hmm,im so lazy. hur hur. :/

oh yah,HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI VEARN! :D
he wont get to read this anyway. LOL

fun day out with SP,sherry,and sarah ytd! :D
went to pasta cafe for lunch,then to cine for movie,kungfu panda,then headed to far east for shopping and dinner @ NaNa Thai! but sadly,only sarah and me stayed to have dinner. so sad! hahaha. sherry and SP,next time free the whole day kkie?! :D
but i still love the company of them lah. must call me out oki?! hehe.

as usual,i dont like to watch cartoons. at some point,i really feel like sleeping! pardon me! hahaha. that's why people say i dont have "tong nian" LOL. true indeed. :/
but,kungfu panda was funny lah as sarah and SP can watch it for 2 times! LOL.

and today,went out with huiqi,shuzhen,carrie,and jiawen to celebrate shuzhen's belated birthday! 21 alr. freedom! LOL
kbox-ing,and as usual,shopping again. hahaha. my singing sucks. hurhur. :/

im like going to orchard everyday. haha. super sian. LOL.
but,vivo tmr! and back to orchard for work again. zzz.
singapore is too small until there's not much place to "talk cock,sing song,play mahjong. -quoted by carrie". hahaha.
haiya.

give it some thought.
maybe one day when i think i can lose you,i will tell you.
i dont want to lose a friend like you.
you are perfect. (:

2008-06-11T11:29:00.000+08:00

Remove one question from below & replace it with your own. Tag eight people, list them down at the end of the post. Notify them in their chatbox that they have been tagged.
oh,sherry tagged me!

1) How long will you wait for someone you love?
quite long i suppose. my friends do know me well. (:

2) What do you hope for now?
my friend to come back to singapore now.

3) What is the last thing you say/do if tommorrow is the end of world?
tell him that i love him. (since its alr the end of the world. haha.)

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?
yeah,sometimes. not that i really hate them. i still love them haha. :D

5) What will you do if your bestfriend has been kidnapped?
POLICE! please call 999!

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain.
of course! i've seen it before. :D

7) Is being tagged fun?
haha. of course not. so ma fan LOL

8) What your desired age of marriage?
tot of 22. but thinking of it now, its too early! haha.

9 ) Are you happy with your life now?
ok loh. i need something more in my life. haha.

10) What if your crush ask you out?
happy, excited, nervous! (i dont think this will happen in my life, so..)

11) What will you do when you have crush that knows you have a crush on him/her?
hmm,i will feel so awkward. that person will feel awkward too arh. haha.

12) What feeling do you hate the most?
being too nervous.

13) What will you do if you fall in love with a guy/girl?
keep it in my heart.

14) What are you looking forward in the upcoming weeks?
projects. work. shopping!

15) The most important things in your life?
my loved ones. health.

16) Who do you hope to always be there for you?
of course my loved ones. :D

17) Do you find life meaningless?
no. i can make my life great. :D

18) Where do you think can find true love?
where there's fate.

19) Do you believe that there is 'True love'?
yes. :D

20) What's your greatest wish?
never really thought about it, yet.

21)What will you change when you can turn back time?
my attitude towards you.

people that i tagged.
-Yao Wei
-Yong Liang
-Shi Pei
-Wan Ting
-Casilda
-Xuan Fang
-Wendy
-Shun An

(:

i should really changed my blogskin soon.

2008-06-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

my blog looks dead.

super long since i update. like 2 weeks? hahaha.
damn busy with projects,and CTs. god,its over YEAH! :D
CTs sucks seriously. i think i will flunk my LAM. hmm.

time to enjoy myself. teehee :D
but yah, working too. it became a part of my life since after 'O's hahaha. but,it helps to build up my purchasing power :D and also not slacking at home. ZzZ.

well, 2 weeks break.
not forgetting projects, CEM,LAM,PMKT,ATRM. its endless ):
lets look on the bright side of life :D ok,im random. lol.

alright,cycling tmr.
im so looking forward :D

bye!

oh, btw, sherry your blog?! (:

2008-05-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

yeah! TR01 won the bid. LOL :D
ok,seriously busy for this semester. :/
but,all the other classes did well too! 3 cheers! (:

and i look like a pregnant lady today. just by wearing a loose shirt that i want to cover my fats.
im fat. :/

i seriously need to start to study for my common test now :/

oh anyway,i went out with my big sis ytd.
trim my eyebrows, and then went to eat at din tai feng. hahaha.
the food was not bad and its not really expensive to eat there. should go and try (:
and she said: "she looks like me, 27 years old" hahaha. ok random.

the people who survived from the earthquake in sichuan, im really touched by them.
live on well. (:

2008-05-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

im lost with words.

anway
ytd's CEM presentation was good.
3 cheers for TR01! :D

ok,i still have my individual assignment,BCOMM,and COMMON TEST!
oh gosh,lucky its e-learning next week. :/
i really need 48 hours/day. hahaha.

oh well,there's this feeling in me again.
its not that bad after all (:

2008-05-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

is there a perfect world that i can live in?
without the stressfulness of life
without people nagging at you
without people turning a deaf ear to you
without backstabbers
without ....

i want A place where there is no natural disasters,
A place where i can live in with my loved ones,
and a place where i can spend my whole life doing things that i want and i like.

i know there wont be. ):

bla bla bla.
stop all your nosense infront of me.
wtf.

2008-05-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

damn.
i shouldnt be so vulgar. anger management is all i need now. *breathe in ~ breathe out
phew.

at least im going to do something.
but,i did do something.
maybe its not enough.
BUT at least i did something.
*what am i thinking?

off to do my work. :/
BYE!

2008-05-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

stress. made me go crazzzzyyyyyy
its slowly building up in me & im going crazy soon i think.
let's see what i have to finish in 2 weeks time.
-LAM individual project
-CEM project (peace!)
-BCOMM long report (havent started, OMG! im sorry grp members!)
-ATRM graded classwork and mock test
and the list just goes on and on with lectures and tutorials. ): D:

smack me and wake me up.
im still sleeping. WAKE ME UP!

work aside.
oh well, i went to reborn my hair today.
it aint that bad than i have xpected. (:
dont laugh at me pls. hahaha.

it seems to me that you've changed.
are you?
and im waiting for someone to heart me.
will you be the one? (:

2008-05-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

what would you do if you could turn back time?
i will want to tell you what i feel. i need courage.
i want to do things that i will not regret doing. people have regrets.
i want to be happy. please dont grumble too much.

yet,you are just another chapter of my life.
the feeling is just.
shucks.

2008-05-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

The Man Rules:
its funny LOL

Now here are the rules from the male side.
These are all numbered '1' ON PURPOSE!
1. Men are NOT mind readers.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat.You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports - It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one
1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing,' We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really.
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball or motor sports
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight.
But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping. (OMG!)

this is one of the forwarded email that i received.
woman would surely have a good laugh on this.
hahaha. LOL.

2008-05-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

get me started on doing my work alright? :/
seriously,i have not been listening attentively to lectures.
how to do tutorials? zzz

ok,work aside. sometimes i just feel like punching you straight into the face.
i may be the one you are saying.
let me tell you,I DONT LIKE IT. damn.
you think you are just so great,a person that is well-liked by people.
owtf,you are not.
you are just an irrtating,disgusting soul.

sometimes it hurts.
my lonely valentine.

P.S. im so looking forward to chat wth you :D

2008-05-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

what is LOVE?
is there true love in this world?
there's a big question mark in my head now.
couples who are together for months and years,and who are admired by others of their love, may not have a happy ending afterall. WHY? its saddening to see frens who broke off with their bf/gf because of simple reasons.
can relationships last?
ok,just a random remark on relationships. :/

am i an optimistic / pessimistic person?
ok,another random question. :/

let's look on the bright side of life. (:

sometimes when you got into something you regret doing, its difficult to clear the mess.

oh,what a day.

2008-05-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LABOUR DAY (:
its a day for me to sleep,slack,and do w/o anyone.
oh,what a day.

someone makes my day ytd.
im really happy and at the same time, sad to have receive your msg.
i should have treasured it and will treasure more from now on.
i have realised that its hard to find someone like you, someone i can share everything with, someone i can confine to.
and, i have found you long ago :D

someone can really spoil my day too.
omfg,there's so much things i can complain and make a big fuss out of it. ):
you spoilt my day.

why can i cry the whole night?
tell me.
maybe i really miss you so.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RICKY PANG :D

2008-04-28T13:37:00.000+08:00

work,school,work,school,work,school. :/
isn't it the life of everyone now, friends?

hmm, celebrated Ricky's birthday ytd. omg super fun. hahaha.
cheesecake was super cheesy, birthday card was "well-written" by us and the fun part was, he had to read out what we wrote for him. LOL. FUNNY BUT FUN. :D
"luv me right?" lol.

do you know that i have been thinking of you?
do you know that i have so much to share with you?
do you know that i want you to come back now?
do you know that?
*you know who you are.

i realise something.
i should not have interfered so much.
i should not think too deep into things.
i should not be the one standing between you two.
do whatever you want.

2008-04-22T15:04:00.000+08:00

so now im at Our Space. suppose to do ATRM tutorial. haha.

but here, out of boredom, i've decided to blog. omg what am i thinking?

well,so my life now revolves around attending lectures,tutorials,doing tutorials,work,slack and sleep. and i really did some of my tutorials. really. (:

hmm, fun & laughter in school is somehow rather the same as the fun that i have when working.

with so many lame jokes and laughter at work or at school, i can really forget about dragging to work or school. :)

but, there are also times where things will get complicated and you will feel frustrated about it? ok,im not going to elaborate. i think my frens knew what i am talking about. :P

alright,i will and should look forward to school. :D

the feeling came back i think.

2008-04-20T19:36:00.000+08:00

konbanwa. (:
learning jap is so much fun. :D

but,this semester is going to be... sian.
and there are tutorials stacking up already. ok,i will start later :/

oh,anyway, i bought a new phone. w890i, mocha brown. (:
walkman phone,with 3.2 megapixels camera, and easy to use functions. what else can i ask for eh? slim somemore. NICE. :D

actually i wanted to buy motorola v9. damn cool leh!
but,ganna "sai gou". they say "not nice lah" "the functions not good lah" ...
but i still think its cool :P

well,i dont know what you are thinking.
i cant stand sonetimes.
and i dont want to find things to quarell with you.
wtf.

monday blues

2008-04-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

year 2,semester 1.
so fast. im not a freshie anymore. hur hur.

this sem is going to be stress i think. wth. ):
look out for more assignments, projects, tutorials. boring boring boring zzz

today's bcomm. assignments and presentations. its just so sucks.
"good morning,my name is lay ying,is there anything i can help you" ???

todays CEM. yet another boring module of planning events. similarly/exactly as FMM? :/

tough days ahead :/

so well,i think you are just acting.
i really dont believe your stories. even until now.

for you,my friend

2008-04-08T02:03:00.000+08:00

i miss you so much.
i really have no idea when can i have a heart-to-heart talk with you again.
its been so long. a year plus.
to me,its really long.
i have not treasure the times back in the past.
im regretting.
i didnt know that i will feel so miserable now.
i really want to pour all my sorrows out to you.
but,i dont want you to worry.

i really miss the times when we were talking about anything,about anybody,and the loads of craps that we crap out.
its been so fun,so safe with you.

now that we are out in diferent place,
i hope that you are alright,
and also,i hope you will not forget the friendship that we have built.
it will continue to grow on strong isn't it?

i want to change for the better.
for you,and for myself.

2008-04-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

oh.
that was all i know how to say.
i finally asked.
mixed feelings though.

maybe its easy for you. but not me.

on a happier note, i went bbq ytd.
fun although there's only the 8 of us.
daidee daidee :D HAHAHA

but,motion sickness.
ate and vomit everything out. in the bus. lucky i have a plastic bag with me.
im sorry,it was really unsightly.

i need more time.

holiday holiday holiday

2008-04-02T15:35:00.000+08:00

came back from cruise like few days back.
im too lazy to blog about it. oh,but its fun! really.
with the companions of friends,with no restrictions,its so great. (:

and im going on another holiday again to KL next week.
oh,i just hope that it will be fun. :D

2008-03-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

rather emo these days.
i dont know why.

will you ever tell me the truth? although i have already found out.
why? why? why? things happen really fast. although i want to know the truth, but it hurts when i have found out that it is really true.
i hate the feeling. im hurt.

is it really easy to get into a relationship again?

come to think of the days, im happy.
you really made me laugh my ass off. although its really damn paiseh sometimes hahaha.
but,things have changed. so fast. that i cant stop the time.
i have beem reflecting,alot alot. yes,its time for me to keep a distance now. i dont want to be labelled.
why you people just like to keep things from me? scare that i'll be hurt? or scare that i'll spread things round? i just want to know the truth. i dont expect much.
i'm really hurt so deeply. :/

please,please let me cry on your shoulders.
i dont want to be alone. its really tough.
friend,i just miss you so much.
will you listen to my sorrows? i really got so much to share with you.

ok.im off to cruise.
i want to be happy.

2008-03-23T01:36:00.000+08:00

anyone can tell me whats wrong with WINDOWS LIVE MESSENGER??!!!
its driving me crazy.

busy busy busy

2008-03-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

i will be so busy for the next few days .......
work work work omg :/
but,i got to earn some pocket money and sarah, shopping! weehee :D

why are friends like that?
and you, i tell you,
i know you hate me, hate us.
i know you will always have that mentality. damn.
i know i will not have your forgiveness. but,i dont look forward to too.
why do things turn out like this.
and people,dont assume that we bully her. we did not.

i grumbled enough of this. you always say we will not be like last time anymore.
yeah,things wont be the same anymore.

best friends

2008-03-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

i always yearn for a long talk with you.
just sitting down and chat.
but now,i can only talk to you over msn.
its alright. i still love the talks and i know i shouldnt grumble :D

i know friends are hard to keep. especially a friend who will listen to your sorrows and share your burden. i know.

i keep you in my heart,hope you keep me in yours too.

what am i thinking?

2008-03-08T15:50:00.000+08:00

i think too much.
its a chance for you.
its silly for me to think that way.
i shouldnt do that.
omg what am i thinking?

i hate myself for doing this. but i cant control myself.
im sorry.

and,and,and, its hard to forget someone.
its true.
i cant stop thinking of you yet.
the feeling is just so bad.

FRIENDS

2008-03-07T13:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY SHERRY! :D
yet another friend turning 1 year older. and we dont want to fall into the "2" year old category LOL (if you get what i mean) hur hur :/
hmm,what will happen to us 10 years down the road? will we still be talking to each other about our lifes? will we still be friends or just hi-bye friends?

imagine 10 years down the road.
we lead our own lifes;
we have our own family;
we have our own burden.
will we still talk to each other about it and sort things out together?
will we have a chance to even meet up,having a coffee and mahjong session to strengthen our relationship more?
im beginning to doubt it.

FRIENDS.
its important, and its not just a chapter of my life.
we may have conflicts,arguments. but its just what everyone will encounter.
yes,people come and go. we will have new friends, but we must also not forget the ones whom we are close with back in our sec school life or even earlier.
i hope that my friends will always be there for me as i will always be there for them. :D

oh well. im beginning to get emotional. lol
well,i really miss the times that we have sweet talks, and having lunch together.
everyone needs a friend, and i really need YOU.

let's meet up more often. and i really hope that we can update each other on our lifes.

oh well,many things are just too difficult.

2008-03-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

its difficult to love someone;
its difficult to say sorry;
its difficult to find a true friend;
its difficult to find someone to confine to;
its difficult to pour your sorrows out;
its difficult to do what you really meant;
its difficult to say "i love you";
its difficult to "dont worry be happy";
its difficult to take your eyes off handsome/pretty guys/gals;
its difficult to forgive someone;
its difficult to lie;
its difficult to trust someone
its difficult not to have stage fright;
its difficult not to have arguments;
its difficult not to have an evil mind

2008-03-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

i love to talk to my friends about all the funny things about people, all the irritating stuffs about people, and all the love that we share with each other :D

Sherry,LayYing,Sarah <3

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Deviana,LayYing <3

LayYing,Sarah <3

Deviana,Sarah,Sherry,YokeHiang,ShiPei (:

& i hope our friendship will remain true always :D

WORK

2008-02-27T13:27:00.000+08:00

work has simply fill up my time well.
not only waiting for the time to pass by, i can also earn abit of money, there are also so many different experiences for me everyday.

nobody will agree that money is enough isn't it? and im broke seriously. :/
i wanna go shopping to buy whatever i yearn for,and also watching movies or just slacking my time out a day with my friends. and all these needs money.
MONEY PLEASE POUR ON ME LOL

just started back to work for two days,and i have experienced so much.
on monday,when i was taking a boat of sashimi out from the kitchen,my steps was imbalance and i squarted on the floor. so embarrasing can! lucky the sashimis are still intact. what was frustrating is that the boss ask about the sashimi and not whether my leg is ok anot. $%#^%$%^$
damn.i think i sprained my leg a liitle. :/

amazingly,there was no more customers at 8.50pm ytd. YEAH its damn early can. so we started to do our duties and got change by 9.30pm. and we started to eat.
Kit ordered a salmon nabe where it needed a stove for the salmon to cooked. wah lao.the fire was so big and for a moment,i thought my face was going to be burnt and disfigured.
LUCKY IM STILL ALIVE AND KICKING HERE
*but we are not supposed to eat anything from the kitchen LOL

yeah,huiqi and shuzhen faster join me for work so i wont be so bored! so many i know are going off or had go off. seriously i miss them! ):

ok,enough of my complaints.
im going off for movies! and some catching up with my sec sch friends. i just miss them so (:

weehee :D

2008-02-26T14:17:00.000+08:00

so i think my blog is finally done :D
people,tag me!

so i went to watch AH LONG PTE LTD on sunday with sarah. pretty good show i think. people will have more knowledge on how gangsters are so cruel (if only the gangsters are good in real life)

suppose to meet her at 4.30pm but met at 5pm. LATE QUEEN SHE IS! LOL
but the many talks with her had make me realise something
HE'S NOT WORTH IT (:

holidays are here and im working! weehee huiqi and shuzhen is working with me (:
i want to earn lots and lots of money!!!

loves (:

HELLO TO MY OFFICIAL BLOG :D

2008-02-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

ok so i have created my blog after so long. :D
i have been thinking "should my feelings be kept in the heart or it should be written out to share with my friends?"
after so long,i think its better to share with my friends rather than being cooped inside my heart (:

ok so it's my official blog!
and credits should go to SHERRY too! i was as blur as a sotong when creating my blog :P
there are so many things for me to edit again and again
ok i will explore and explore and explore again ZZz

well,i hope that i will not neglect my blog :D

loves (: